Bittersweet

How can a person be happy and sad at the same time? I don't think that it can be done.

I'm trying very hard right now to be happy for a person that has made such an amazing impact on my life and at the same time, created an outlet for me to do what I love to do--sing. And now he is leaving the area. He is moving his beautiful family to N.C.--nearer to family members and taking a position with a church there. It will be an incredible opportunity for him to do what he loves to do--lead people in worship via music and song. He will meet new people, develop new relationships, make an impact on someone else and they will all fall in love with him. You can't help it. The phrase, "To know him, is to love him", never fit anyone so well.

In a sense, I feel betrayed. And yet, this man would never do that. He is one of the most sincere, honest, faithful people I know. He lives to praise God and has a spirit that most people would envy.

I will miss seeing his big brown (cow) eyes, his torn jeans, the humble demeanor in his walk, hearing his voice and sensing his passion for what he does.



So, for the past two days, I've cried and I've cursed myself for feeling the way that I do. I'm so selfish. This isn't about me. I know I should be happy for him and I should be supporting his decision to make this move, which I'm sure was not an easy one for him to make.

We at WCC have had him for almost 6 years. We were blessed to have known him and his family. I/we need to share him with others. Gifts this good should be "passed on".

I'm going to be sad for a while--I can't help it. But I pray that Kris B and his beautiful family: wife Jennifer and five lovely children will enjoy their new home and God's abundant blessings eternally.

I know I speak for many when I say, we love you guys and we will miss you tremendously. ; )