Clutter

For the last two mornings in a row, I have woken up way too early and then could not go back to sleep for thinking about all the "stuff" in my house. I think it's actually called "clutter"--that is, if you can see it taking up space. Otherwise, it's just my "stuff" because it's all hidden away. Hidden in places where most people wouldn't even know there is a place. Seriously...this house has several cleverly disguised hiding places that people other than my own daughters, wouldn't even know about.

And where there is space, there must be stuff. At least that's what I guess I've been thinking for years. And now it's overwhelming to me. I can't sleep for thinking about it. And, you'd think that since it's on my mind like this, I'd be eager to do something about it. But no. I can't get motivated. I've prayed about it--that's how serious it is to me. When my mother died, my sister and I had an unbelievable mess to go through--worse than I have right now, but I'm well on my way to catching up with her or possibly even surpassing her. I'm getting so upset with myself. Granted, my stuff is put away neatly--pretty much organized. But, it's still a bunch of stuff I do not need. Some stuff I haven't seen in years! And what's funny about this is that when I have taken the initiative and thrown something out that I had finally decided I didn't need anymore, it felt so good. Okay, this is really silly, but one of my daughters gave me chocolates in a large, heart shaped, clear plastic container for Valentine's Day. I thought my grand daughter would think the box was cool. So, I washed it out and tried to soak off the Russel Stover's label. I couldn't get it off--I just messed it up. But I had that darned thing on the kitchen counter for 5 days before I picked it up and tossed it in the trash. It felt so good.

I must mention that most of my stuff is not trash. I've got some good stuff. ; ) Most of it collectibles and nostalgic stuff that I'm starting to think I could live without. And the crafts! It's so sad...

I'm planning on participating in the Annual Lakewood Garage Sale in June--wish me luck in getting rid of my clutter--the stuff in my house and in my head! : )